II. TO BE
ACQUANNTED WITH AGNES SAWARNO
God chose His servant to work together with Him.
Praise the Lord, the faithful Almighty God Who never
forces His will to human beings, Who never stops His Love to the mankind,
Who has the power for human beings’ salvation, God the creator is God
who has been working, loving, giving the blessings, saving, and choosing
His chosen people.
“You did not choose me, but I chose you” (Joh 15:16)
In His plan of Salvation, God chose a simple woman
who wanted to be faithful in her prayers and charity. By God’s love,
she was able to hear the whisper of the Spirit of God Who chose her
to be the Creator’s instrument. The name of that woman was Agnes Sawarno.
1. The Childhood
and the youth of Agnes
Born in a rubber plantation of Kisaran, North Sumatra, on 23 December 1946; She was given a name
Nuraini Supriyatini. Since she was a baby, she was separated from her
parents because she was adopted by one of her close relatives and was
taken to Pematang Siantar, far away from her big family circle.
Since her childhood she had devoted herself to love
God the Almighty by praying much in her old faith at that moment. In
her youth she loved to teach children how to pray and introduce them
to God. At that time she began to love Siti Mariyam, the woman whose
holiness was praisedworthy. She had a strong will to follow Siti Mariyam
as her idol besides her longing to know closer and love God.
After finishing her study at the Junior high and Economics Senior high Schools in Binjai, she preferred
staying home as a private teacher of Moslem prayers and how to read
2. To get married and to hear the Voice for
the first time
Getting older as a youth, she got to know God better
and better. She met an army officer with the rank of Captain, called
Sawarno, and they had a serious relationship (at that time Sawarno
did not add his Christian name, Tarcisius, to his name).
After three years of getting along together, she
was proposed to marry him, but she was very shocked to find out that
her future husband was not a Moslem, but a Catholic. She needed a month
to consider carefully about his proposal in prayers. Though she loved
this man very much, she did not intend to make a decision based on
her heart only, but also she kept on praying and asking God:
“My God, is this the man You grant to me as my husband?”
Unexpectedly, after a month going by, she heard a
Voice answering her prayer:
“Love and accept him as what he is. It is I Who granted
him to you”.
Knowing that the answer fitted her will, she was
very grateful, but she never asked herself whose Voice that answered
her prayer. Actually when she heard the Voice she was very stunned;
the Voice had such power to control over her feelings in deep peace.
She had no power to protest, she only accepted what she had heard in
full surrender with grateful heart.
They accepted the Marriage with a special dispensation
in the Cathedral of Medan conducted by Father Pius Datubara OFM Cap.
(Now Archbishop Pius Datubara,
OFM Cap of Medan.
Red.) On 31 March 1971. As a wife of an army officer, she had to
follow wherever her husband was moved to a new post. First of all,
she moved to Sidikalang, North Sumatra.
Aproaching the time to deliver her first baby; her husband was following
an officer advance course in Bandung, West
Java. It was really a hard time for her, since she had
a problem with her pregnancy, the position of her baby was upside down
and she had to be sent to a hospital for an operation. The nearest
hospital was Medan Hospital;
it took six hours to get from Sidikalang, while her condition was not
good enough to go to that hospital. Then she turned to God to pray
for help in her old faith, as she believed God would never leave her
behind. At once she heard the Voice again:
“At this very moment I have answered your prayer,
It was the same Voice she had known before when she
asked for the consideration to get married to Sawarno. The same Voice
that controlled over her mind. One more time the Voice addressed her
saying: “My child…” how close that was!
The delivery of her baby went on safely without having
an operation at the hospital. Right after her prayer was answered,
she felt a contraction to deliver her baby soon. Her baby boy was delivered
normally, though the position of the baby remained upside down with
the intestines around the baby’s neck.
After a month away from the delivery of her first
son, her husband had not been back yet. She remained active in prayers
to God. While she was praying in midnight, the Voice came again to
her with a request:
“Give your son to Me.”
Since she did not understand that request, the next
day she told this event to her neighbour, an army officer who was coincidentally
a Catholic. He explained to her that as a Catholic, it was obligated
to baptize the baby. She could not protest that request. Because she
was not a Catholic and her husband was away from home, she asked that
army officer to call a priest to baptize her son at home. Thomas Aquinas
was her first son who was baptized at home. The event of this baptism
slowly brought her to open her heart for the real God. Her prayers
were getting more intense. That Voice extended a greeting again to
“My child, will you be saved in My Name?”
“How would You save me?”
“Take the Holy Book and bring it to Me”.
“Which Holy Book?” (There were 2 Holy Books in
“Your husband’s Holy Book”.
When she read the Holy Bible, her heart and mind
were opened and she let herself be guided in reading the Holy Book
of her husband. By reading the two Holy Books, she made a comparison,
till finally she found the Truth in the Holy Bible, and she started
to understand Who the the Voice, Who often extended greetings to her:
He is Lord Jesus Himself. At that moment she could not call Lord Jesus
as God, but as a prophet, as she still believed in her old faith. The
guidance and understanding of the Holy Bible kept going on. All her
five children were baptized one by one as Catholic. Since June 1976,
the family moved to Cimahi, West Java.
3. Baptism, Started to
Believe and Undergo the Sufferings
the Holy Bible, she came to the pericope of the confession of Jesus’ apostles
that Jesus was The Messiah. The same question was also forwarded
to you, Who am I?”
This question brought her mind and heart to a dilemmatic decision:” If
only I surrendered myself to be baptized I would find a way to answer
that question.” Though the baptism was postponed a while, finally she
was baptized with her baptist name, Agnes, on 24 December 1978 at St.
Ignatius Church – Cimahi by Father Delopius OSC. Agnes also was active
at the parish of St. Ignatius Church, granted the tasks such as liturgical
services and church charity. However she had an obstacle in her new
faith as a Catholic to change totally her old faith habits into the
Catholic prayer, she had not been able yet to call The Name Jesus: “My
God The Almighty”. Since she was baptized, Jesus never came to extend
greetings to her. The situation of her faith and prayers was getting
worse and drier. In the depth of her heart, came up a will power to
meet Jesus. If Jesus were the Almighty God Whom she always longed for,
and searching for, she would surely find and meet Him personally. But
if Jesus were “only a prophet”, merely a human being, a faith leader,
she would not surely meet Him. This situation had been happening to
her for a long time till the Voice came to extend the greeting to her
almost a year after her baptism:
child, I always listen to your prayers. At this very moment, I hear
of your complaints. Previously you came to Me alone, now you also
come to Me by yourself, I will settle your matter.”
She expressed her difficulties and dryness of her faith and prayers and
begged to be able to meet God. She completely surrendered herself to
am asking You, if You are really God the Almighty, show me Who You
are. If you do not show me Who You are, I will be back to my old
Before her prayer was finished, she was “taken” by God into a “spiritual
journey”: to follow the journey of Jesus as the Savior. She saw a vision
of how Lord Jesus was among the human beings for three years’ services
and His teaching His commandments. Everything she saw in the vision
was completely precise as the events of the Gospel that she has read
in the Holy Bible. Finally she was taken to Golgotha on
which Jesus was crucified. On the right and left side of Jesus, there
were two criminals who were crucified on the crosses as well. In this
moment she was stuck powerlessly. With all her deep emotions she cried:
“My Lord and my God! Forgive me!” while bending
down herself with full respect to God.
From the top of the cross, the voice of Jesus, which she was familiar
with, said to her gently:
”This is I Who you are looking for. I shall
be with you”
There was no longer any hesitation in her heart that it was Jesus, her
Lord and God, Who she had been looking for and worshiping so far. Jesus
extended His greeting to her:
”My child, after you saw and accepted Me,
you will suffer in your life”.
Again, there was no any hesitation in her heart to suffer for the Glory
of God. But she asked to be allowed to be with Him after she finally
met Him in person. For her, the journey of searching for the real God
was fully completed. Jesus answered to her:
home, My child, one day you will be needed by many people”.
At that moment she did not expect that God would use her as His instrument
for the sake of the people’s need fifteen years later.
The prophecy of Lord Jesus concerning Agnes’ suffering
came into reality. It was started with the illness she had suffered
for one and a half years. This illness made her weak physically and
finally paralyzed her. After diagnosing her carefully, the doctor was
not able to find her illness, nevertheless the doctor said she was
not ill at all. So far Jesus was completely silent, no voice was extended
to her, which no voice to comfort her. But this time her heart was
completely in peace, and her faith was strong. God had His own plan,
and He was strengthening His child’s faith. It seemed that Lord Jesus
let Agnes to suffer badly and let her family use the worldly efforts
for her recovery. No worldly efforts could make her recovered. After
one and a half years of a weird suffering, she became very thin and
a parish priest had already given the Sacrament of the sick to Agnes.
She never left her life of prayers, she surrendered her life to Lord
“God, forgive me in my life journey. If You
would like to call me back to You, I am ready”.
Lord Jesus came to her with His gentle voice, the Voice she had longed
for a long time:
“My child, I love you. I never leave you.
Be recovered in My Name”.
Without any medicine, she recovered from her illness and her physical
condition was getting better and better. The next suffering was her
children got ill by turns, and they had to be sent to the hospital
one by one. She spent a lot of money on the expenses of the private
doctors for her children since the doctors belonging to the local hospital
could not help them anymore. She might have borne any sufferings repeatedly,
but the miracles of God never left her.
“Through your suffering I will show My power”,
4. The Guidance of John, the Apostle.
Year by year went by. One day in the year 1990, while she was carrying
out her routine duty as a housewife, she was surprised by an unfamiliar
voice, which extended a greeting to her:
“Agnes, Agnes!” the
voice greeted her.
But she ignored that greeting. The next day the voice came back again
and again and she kept on ignoring it. She
was amazed that she was not afraid of that voice. Since the voice was
too often to greet her, she became upset. Then she went into prayer
to ask for God’s grace to set her free from the evil. But the voice
continued to greet her for about a week. One day when the same voice
came to her again, she forced herself to greet that voice back:
“Well, thank you for your greetings. Could
you tell me who you are?”
She had to do it since she was not able to send him away. The voice did not introduce itself straightly:
“Agnes, take your Holy Bible to me, you will know
and see who I am!”
Agnes took The Holy Bible and the voice asked her to open the Holy Bible
up the page where the name of the voice was on, it stopped on the page
of John’s Gospel. The voice asked her back:
“Who is it?”
“Are you John, the apostle, the beloved disciple
of Lord Jesus?”
The voice said:
“I am coming to you at this very moment. You have
to believe me“.
Finally Agnes was willing to accept him. She thanked John, the apostle,
for his greetings and apologized to him for treating him unpleasantly.
In the next journey, without saying the purpose of his visits, John, the
apostle, asked Agnes to be more intense in prayers and had Agnes fulfill
- To live in penitential
rite and reconciliation
- To live in self-denial
- To forgive others’ faults
- Not to remember all
good things you have done for others, that will make you proud of yourself.
- To say prayers intensively
in order to be closer to God.
...By John, the apostle,
Agnes was guided to understand the contents of the Holy Bible about
God the Almighty, ...The Truth, God’s Love and Affection.
Later he directed Agnes to God’s plan, which should happen in her life.
The visits of John, the apostle, to Agnes had been for five years (1990-1995). He reminded her to the word of
Jesus when she met Him in person that Agnes would be used as His instrument
for the sake of others’ need.
on you have to be well-prepared because you will have lots of visitors
to your house soon.”
5. The Greetings, Apparitions of Mother Mary and Heavenly Enchantment
understandable that the most beautiful prayer she loves after being
baptized is the rosary, having a dialogue with Mother Mary that she
admires and she loves it more now. Since the early of 1994 in her
time of friendship with John, the apostle, after having prayed the
rosary, she begins to hear the greetings with a different voice from
Lord Jesus’s voice or John, the apostle.
“Thank you my child, you come to honor me with your
a soft and short greeting: “Thank
way she mentioned her name was so special, so sweet. She was thinking
about Mother Mary, because of those greetings: … you come to honor
me with your prayer… She told her husband, and he replied with “Is
it possible that it is Mother Mary?”
On 24 March 1995 it was another historical time for her. For the first
time she went on a pilgrimage to Sendangsono with a small group:
Fransisca Nurbiyantoro, Maria Goretti Sunaryo, Mrs. Suparman, Ita
and Tony Martinus, her fourth son.
in the afternoon, around 3.30 pm. In front of the grotto, there are
a lot of people praying, so that this small group could not have
a place to praying. That is why they move a bit far from the grotto,
on the right side near the burial of the first cathecist. But right
on that place, Mother Mary appeared and softly greeted her, not surprising
her at all:
“Welcome my child”, was her first greeting.
She was amazed by the lady’s beauty. With no doubt
that she is Mother Mary herself, because she could recognize her voice.
It was Mother Mary the one who had greeted her several times when she
was praying the rosary at home.
That lady was still young, around 18 years old, but
her motherly tenderness radiated from her beauty. Her long white clothes
covered her until her toes that did not touch the ground. A crease
was seen on the neckline with a tie-knot made from the same material
of the clothes, there was also a crease on her waist without any string.
The clothes and sleeves are long with wide cuffs on her hands that
are also sewed with a crease. Her clothes and sleeves were shaking
softly blown by the wind. Her hair was black; a little curl was shown
on the front, because her veil was opened a little bit. Her white veil
covered her head, so it could not be seen whether she had a short or
long hair. Even the veil was long enough until her waist. While, she
was talking, she slided the lower side of the veil on her arms. Even
with simple clothes – daily housewife clothes – her beauty covered
it all. She had an oval face, with a sharp cleft chin, deep beautiful
brown eyes, thick eyebrows and strong eye-bones. She had a typical
Hebrew’s nose that was small and a slim pointed long-nose. Her mouth
is small, with a beautiful slight smile, with dimples seen while she
was smiling and talking. She often put her left hand on her chest,
and moved her right hand calmly as she talked.
By this position, it was obviously seen that she talked from her deepest
and repent, return to God wholly. Praise God in your lives. You will
be safe in the world and hereafter; heaven
is your place. Convey this message to your brothers. Till we meet again,
Amazed by this apparition, she praised in thankfulness. While other members
of the group did not see it but they knew that something was happening,
because they were having a beautiful moment as well. The brightness
of the sun turned to pale, and seen with bare eyes as a big white full
moon, surrounded with sparkling red and orange lights. After some time,
the sun started to turn around to the right and left within those sparkling
lights. Then, the color of the sun changed into torquise and light
blue in turns, moved to the right and left, up and down and back to
the center with colorful lights in the clear blue sky. The heavenly
enchanment is probably the right word to express, because they were
all amazed at that moment. No other beautiful sights could compare
with what they have just seen. Even they could not imagine their feelings
that were full of joy and peace.
When Agnes shared with the others that Mother Mary
just appeared herself, they filled with more joy. Fransisca quickly
noted down the first short message of Mother Mary. Then, the message
was forwarded to the group of “Catholic Women Organization” from Semarang who stayed not too far away from Agnes
and the group. At that time, Agnes reminded the people around her to
pray instead of walking around, eating and even talking. Even though
they were informed that Mother Mary was there among them, they did
not believe it. Eventhough Mother Mary was present for quite a long
time, until 5 pm.
6. The Apparitions at Agnes' House
On 2 April 1995, in the morning, when Agnes had just finished doing her
daily household chores, she sat at the dining table and faced her backyard.
From there, she could see the clear blue sky. All of a sudden, they
sky changed color and she could see the heavenly enchantment, which
was same as the one in Sendangsono just a week before. Instead of going
out, she stayed inside the house. In minutes, that beautiful scenery
disappeared and the sun turned back to normal.
On 3 April 1995, at about the same time, she had the same scenery: the
heavenly enchantment. Her son Tony, who joined her to Sendangsono,
was there and saw the same scenery. Then, he asked whether Mother Mary
would also appear herself. Agnes asked Tony to call Fransisca, who
lived nearby, to come and see that scenery together. When Fransisca
came, the scenery was still in progress. Fransisca’s husband, Nurbiyantoro,
was there to witness it as well. The scenery was also still in progress
when Nurbiyantoro arrived at his office. Agnes and Fransisca decided
to pray the rosary together. While praying the rosary, Mother Mary
appeared to Agnes only.
On the first message received in Cimahi, Mother Mary asked Agnes to gather
people and have her house well prepared for them to pray the rosary
together. Mother Mary expressed her deep sorrow towards her children:
“A lot of my children are good in praying, but they
do nothing. They are busy with their worldly-thing. Therefore, I
come here to ask you, my children, to pray and serve the sufferers
“I come here to take up my children to God. Because
there will happen a ‘three days of darkness’ all over the world;
no sun, nor moon, nor stars; all this will happen at the beginning
of the year. All this will be just a “sign” in order that all human
beings be made aware of the necessity of returning to God.”
Mother Mary promised to be present on the next Monday (10 April
1995) and every other Monday.
At about 10.30 am, Agnes and Fransisca were in a hurry to see the priest
of St. Ignatius Church, which was located not far from her house. They
shared their spiritual experience, which happened in that morning to
Fr. Warhadi, OSC. As the parish’s priest, he said that if this is God’s
work, no one could stop it; but if it is from the world, it will be
gone soon. Agnes asked for his approval: “Do you mind if we gather
and pray at my house as requested by Mother Mary?” Fr. Warhadi answered: “You
may gather and pray to prove whether the message comes indeed from
Mother Mary. Do not invite many people, just your catholic friends
in your neighborhood.”
Different from Fr. Warhadi, her husband, Tarcisius Sawarno, did not agree
with Agnes’ plan. To hear her story, instead of supporting, he as an
army officer, reminded her not to go too far, because he was afraid
that it probably came from the devils.
7. The apparition of Mother Mary in the Church of St.Ignatius – Cimahi.
Perceiving such reaction from her husband, Mrs.
Agnes felt confused. At the next night on 4 April 1995 she asked Mrs.
Fransisca to accompany her to the church and at the front of Mother
Mary’s statue she cried and prayed.
“Mother Mary, it is impossible for all of this
matter to be done, because I could not afford to face all of this present
That was her praying expression while she was
crying. For a weeklong Mrs. Agnes kept on praying to Mother Mary in
the church of St. Ignatius, Cimahi, because she felt
afraid and confused. Still, at the beginning she was unwilling to accept
this assignment. She felt improper and suppressed. She extended her
feelings to Mother Mary in her prayers. According to her, the proper
person to be assigned for this assignment was holy people, priests,
churchmen and churchwomen, but not she. Mother Mary strengthens her
and pronounced that everyone is equal in front of God as they are all
children of God.
But what happened? At that time, Mother Mary
was present in apparition and said:
“Well Agnes, I am going to ask you. You have
been saved from the world, now you are a child of God. What have you
done for God?
“There is none I have done for God, Mother”
Mother Mary replied:
“This is the right moment for you to dedicate
your life to God, Agnes, do not be worried, pray, asks God, and you
will receive the answer”
Instantly Mrs. Agnes prayed: “O God, please
help me” After praying Mrs. Agnes felt joyful, happy, and deeply peaceful.
The Spirit of God dominated her, all of her worries and fear disappeared,
and she only felt herself abandoned to God.
Afterwards Mother Mary asked again:
“Yes I am ready Mother. I will”.
And Mrs. Agnes repeatedly asked:
“Mother, how could I convey this to those people?
Is it from door to door?”
“That is not what I intend to. Gather them on
next Monday morning. Not too many, but just a few people would do,
I would like them to be my witnesses. Do not worry, my child! I will
prove it and keep my promise”
Then Mrs. Agnes asked again:
“Mother, should I carry out this assignment
by myself? Would I be able to do that?
Mother Mary answered:
“Do not be worry Agnes! I will call them to
get along with you to convey the truth. God and I, your Mother, will
be along with you in your mission”
At the time, when she heard the answer of Mother
Mary, she felt relieved. Eventhough her husband kept on reminding her
with the same words: “Be careful, if that did not happen, our family
would be disgraced”. Almost everyday Mrs. Agnes cried and prayed to
be stronger. Mother Mary was so kind, as always to be present when
Mrs. Agnes was trouble and cheered her up.
8. The first message to the people at Cimahi
Monday, 10 April 1995, Since 05.00 AM early in the morning, Mrs. Agnes
had already prepared herself. But again the scare came. The scare was
that there would nothing happen; that all the things were really from
the power of darkness. Her husband had also prepared himself, took
a bath with an intention to leave home soon so that he would not necessarily
be involved in all the events.
At 06.00 a.m., the relatives and the neigborhood had
already come, for about 26 people, including her husband that had
not gone yet. At that time the sun had just risen and suddenly once
again the beauty of the heavenly enchanment happened just like at
Sendangsono as well as at this house last week. The sky was glittered
with many very beautiful bright colors. The sun turned pale like
a full moon and could be seen with bare eyes. Every body admired
and amazed by the beauty of the scenery they could see at that time.
Her husband was amazed and believed:”It is true, this comes
from heaven!” The rosary was prayed together, and at about
06.15 a.m. Mother Mary kept her promise. She came and greeted:
“You have seen the power of God that comes through me,
but up to now you have not believed yet, Agnes!”
At that time Tarcisius got the same miracle. He got the presence of Mother Mary that was very touchful for him. This was granted from Mother Mary to him in order for him to believe
and to support his wife.
Then Mother Mary had Agnes call
the Priest to bless the praying place and brought the water from their
own houses for healing. And asked your relatives to pray together with
Mother Mary because they would be the witnesses of the truth. And asked
the people to pray diligently the rosary, to fast, to be abstinent and to mortify on Fridays in order to be spared from the power of evil.
The message of Mother Mary was conveyed through Agnes as the instrument
of the presence of Mother Mary with the
power of God.
the people gathered and prayed together in
the community, Mother Mary was present. This was carried out every
Monday and every time requested by Mother Mary. In 1995 Mother Mary
was present and conveyed her first messages. Some people noted her
first messages individually then they were copied and bounded in a
simple book: “THE MESSAGE OF MOTHER MARY FROM 3 APRIL TO 22 DECEMBER
then the people who joined the prayer, got a spiritual touch from God
and Mother Mary. So many spritual touch stories were expressed in the
sharing, healing, strengthening and repenting.